wordless and powerless

are the best ways to describe how reports out of Iraq leave me...I escape into work or other equally distracting activities in order not to think about the situation. I try to focus on what I can control as reports of escalating violence and sectarian division reach the English language media.

When a more clear cut answer as to the problem was in reach -- protesting the war at all...expressing our dissent with regard to the ignominious Democrats who voted to approve this war, I felt more motivated to comment on the idiocy of the rationalizations, the outright deception and lies spread like a s#@# mist over the airwaves...but now what is to be done? How do we go one, knowing that this country is responsible for the misery and chaos that threatens to spill over and destabilized an entire region?

Is cynical resignation the only response? This is after a day when I already feel defeated at work by various forms of non-thinking that pass for righteousness...I have got no answers. I don't be believe in paroxysms of indulging in paroxysms of guilt, I feel as if I should spend every minute I am not housebound with my family because the streets are Irvine are policed by militia celebrating, grateful, selfish, hedonistic, but even that goes wrong most of the time and I end up making dinner and bitching about the unwashed dishes.